Ummmm hiiiiiiiii......

So it's been awhile since I've even thought about my blog. My last post was about Carson's birthday party in JULY and this is February of the next year :/ I know I have been awful at This whole thing but to be honest my life was/is pretty damn boring and at the time of my last post I was still dealing with a bit of post partum anxiety.

When I started working again in June I felt alive again! I felt like I had purpose other than taking care of the baby all day every day. I could get up a few days a week, do my hair, my make-up, GET OUT OF MY PJ's, drop the baby off for a little bit, recharge my mommy batteries and go make some mOolah. It made me feel awesome to be social again, to learn new things, and meet new people. I didnt know I needed these things until then but I so desperately did. I needed to feel like "Britney" and to figure out who "Britney" was as wife, daughter ,sister, friend, and everything else while also being mother to my little boy.

And that is exactly what I've been doing. Searching for the "Britney" I am now. And I think I've found her. I am so happy where I am right now. I love my family, my job, and most importantly, I love ME again.

I look forward to getting back into sharing our adventures again. And catching back up with everyone :)

We've been sick....

 for forever now, & it doesn't seem to be letting up! We don't have the pukey, body aches kinda sick but we have the head congestion, runny nose, coughing, can't breathe kind. blah. And it's here for the long haul, obviously.

I don't deal well with Carson being sick. I constantly feel like his cough is getting worse & he is inching closer to progressing into croup or rsv. Plus, I have t.e.r.r.i.b.l.e anxiety since I had Carse, and it is mostly around health issues. Not health issues you can control but ones you can't, like blood clots, throat closing up from allergies, chest pains, & brain aneurysms. I know I sound crazy & I hate that I let my mind wonder far enough for me to actually consider that I have any of them, but I do & it is something I'm working on. So, as you can imagine hearing my baby cough in the middle of the night, is well, its getting to me. GO AWAY nasty cold!

So my friends, this is me apologizing for not posting in 4ever. i sorry =)